Why I quit cannabis
I like cannabis, I will always do, but it doesn’t mean I need to consume it myself.
The first time I ever smoked cannabis was two years ago, but I never smoked it for a year after that first try. Recently, just within the past 6 months, living in Canada and the Netherlands, I have consumed more amount of cannabis than I did before leaving India. I won’t say it was excessive, but I agree I wasn’t careful while consuming it. I never respected it like I respect psychedelics.
The primary reason I consume drugs is to learn about my deeper self. Initially, cannabis did help me understand my mind. Under the influence of it, I learned how consciousness can take different forms, but I never learned anything about consciousness itself as I do on psychedelics. The best insight I ever got from cannabis was when I ate a Sativa chocolate, I was walking on the road and when I looked at the buildings, sky, people etc., I perceived the whole world as an architectural model made by someone (which was the universal consciousness itself), I felt everything was arranged in that model for a reason, and it really doesn’t matter what you do with your life, you are fulfilling the play made by the higher consciousness. No doubt that the trip was psychedelic in nature, but there were no hallucinations, everything was crisp clear and that state felt more real than reality. It may sound bullshit and lame to some people, or it may sound mind-blowing to others, for me it was one of the many other realizations that the universe is not the same as I perceive it normally. I am thankful to cannabis for gifting me that realization, it opened up new doors to my imagination.
Yesterday after eating cannabis Indica brownie (FYI, it wasn’t a bad trip), I realised I am not getting benefits from cannabis like I used to do once, I don’t need it anymore, I can do much more than doing cannabis. When I was tripping I said to myself:
On this bicycle ride, it is the time to dismount the cannabis support wheels.
I felt I have got sufficient knowledge from cannabis (I don’t mean all the knowledge — as it is infinite exploration). I think I have better ways to expand my consciousness than to consume cannabis (like meditation and psychedelics). Consuming weed now would mostly serve the purpose of an escape drug — just getting high, relaxing and enjoying food— an attachment not worth on my spiritual journey.
I don’t regret taking cannabis. As I said earlier in this blog, there was the time when I was naive (in term of understanding altered state of consciousness) and cannabis helped me a lot. After taking psychedelics and diving deeper into the realm of spirituality, cannabis seems like a freshmen year course. The time I may be spending on getting high on cannabis can be utilised much more efficiently somewhere else. Currently, I can’t say this for psychedelics, but I wish a day to come when I would be independent enough to say it.
As you may know, I don’t drink alcohol or smoke tobacco, but adding cannabis to the list is not the same. Cannabis obviously holds a higher position in my heart and I would never disregard the use of cannabis. Unlike alcohol and nicotine, it has the potential of bringing a positive change in life (if consumed with proper intentions). The plant hemp as a whole is a miracle. I am thankful that humanity has access to its powers. Do note I don’t advocate the use of cannabis. I believe cannabis is also not for everyone (now including me) and I respect the choice of people who try to stay away from these substances. Considering humans emerged because of their curious nature, it can never be easy to stay away from these substances, and the fact some people can maintain that distance for their entire life is a respectable decision.
With the end of this blog, I announce the end of my cannabis journey.
