Life: A Concerto
A perspective to live this life, which I gifted myself on my 22nd birthday
Hey Vismay,
I am a perspective, a gift to you on your birthday. I want to tell you something no one told you about, and no one will ever tell you — until you find it yourself — using my help.
What is it?
Well, I think you know, I mean to say— answers — for the “Life itself!”
But what is that perspective exactly?
Okay, it is not so straightforward. Life is like a higher dimensional reality, but you have to understand it with a linear dimension of time. Thus, I want you to use all your senses for me (to add more dimensions) while reading this blog.
Here’s the start, imagine your life. Like literally imagine a space in front of your eyes, changing over a period of time. Whatever so-called you (and your life) is confined in that space, make this image as accurate as possible.
Now go back before your birth, was there such a world? Do you agree nothing like this universe existed (for you) before your birth, or at least nothing you can surely know at this moment.
I want you to reflect on that little seed called “birth”, which out of nowhere presented this vast universe to you. Is there any meaning to this birth? Well, take my word, NOPE. Nothing matters at all, everything you think as your “self” is actually an egoic-construct — an illusion which is so persistent that you believe it to be the truth.
I am sorry that I presented this harsh nihilist reality to you, but it was important and you should be thankful I did — because you know what, now that there is no predefined meaning to your life, and you have your life in your hand, you can actually craft it yourself.
I will help you a bit in sculpting that innate meaning. Here’s a 101 concept: for you, this life will always be nothing but your own conscious experience. I will say you are 1, connecting 0 and ∞. Again, you are that self which — links the nothingness which existed before you were born — to the universalness which exists after your birth. Once more, you are the unit in the void without which the infinity could never express itself. Didn’t get it? Again, even if there is nothing — or everything — it doesn’t matter, because you are the identity which identifies them. Didn’t get? Well, one final try:
Emptiness—> Self< — Universalness
So, go back to the scenario I previously asked you to imagine (a vast space in front of your eyes). You know that there is beauty in this universalness, and you are standing in illusionary middle of this universe, with potential to bridge this beauty with such a nihilist reality. Before you proceed, take a moment, and thank this universe for making the reality and gifting you a seed of your consciousness to experience it. You have the gift of conscious experience — you have the reality — the answer is to explore the beauty.
Well, actually the answers are even deeper. I would say your psyche becomes an instance of this universe while modelling it. In a way, you don’t really exist, but what exists is just you. I won’t go into the details of this part because you won’t understand it. Every time you tried, I ended up experiencing it without any logical answers.
A little advice from my side is that please take some time for yourself and reflect on what you are doing. When you imagine the problems, write it down. It is hard to write the problems because language is a compressed form of your experiences, but you can break the rules to ADD MORE DIMENSIONS to it — use more commas, semicolons, dashes, brackets; maybe capitalize the important words; perhaps add so many ands and buts — but don’t break that link in your writing, because it is that link which connects all the problems to all the possible solutions.
Ok, a hefty sentence for you, process it slowly:
Life is a long term play — and this universe literally bombards you with so many multidimensional problems — but if you set an intention of solving them — you sit with it and focus with all of your resources (senses), and anchor your thoughts by writing it down — you will be able to dissect that problem, in comprehensible dimensions like words, sentences, poems—and at the end of this process, you will have the tools that point towards the answers — I’m sure the elegant answer you will get is LOVE; precisely, infinite love; for your own and for the others; for what exists, what does not, and what could be.
You have already done a lot, but there is still more to go. I am thankful for all you have done for me, but I want you to feel the same for me, and this perspective holds the potential to do a lot for you.
In life, I want you to flow with the music you are playing as a soloist in harmony with the orchestra surrounding you: a concerto.
With love,
V!SMAY
